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[08 Jul 2006|07:59pm]
I totally just downloaded Smooth Operator by Sade. hahahaha.

bourbon tonight? proballlyyy

I regret boyfriends for real.

I had steak and doughnuts todayyyyy. fatgirl

ppl call me
Now.. you tell me something..

SO I decided I'm only going to trust one person with my life and things that go on in it. If theres something I dont want the world to know, I'm only going to tell this one person because
What the fuck.
Was there ever a point where you could talk to someone. Just talk, and they wouldn't fuck up your story and spread it like it's something even worth talking about?
I swear. I fucking hate the way people are. If there's something wrong or different with someone, we stare and talk all about it.
We're fascinated with car wrecks and fights and who's doing who.
It's sad. But that's the human race for you.

Trust has become nothing more than an empty word.
4 somethings| Now.. you tell me something..

[06 Jul 2006|12:26am]
4 somethings| Now.. you tell me something..

[25 Jun 2006|01:57pm]
[ mood | excited ]

19 days until my birthday.

What should I get pierced?

Keep in mind i need to be able to hide it well with a retainer because my clinicals (me going to the hospital) start in august. maybe a lip on the side? or the middle?


2 somethings| Now.. you tell me something..

[15 Jun 2006|10:21pm]
Well shit.
I recently discovered that you have to be 21 to get into Coyote Ugly, not 18. So that ruins my birthday plans. ): now what? pin the tail on the donkey and a luau in my backyard?! fuck that.
This is gay.

18 somethings| Now.. you tell me something..

I'm fuckin' PRE MED!!! *smart* [05 Jun 2006|07:29pm]
[ mood | pensive ]

So.. How's college life?
So far, so good. I just don't like driving an hour to get there on the interstate and having to wake up at 5:00am. I come home and nap for 5 hours after that on Mondays. Wednesdays are going to be hard cause it's lectures 7:00-11:00 then lunch, then 12:00- 3:30 is my lab. I'll be dead by then. I need to start going to bed at 9. HAH yeah right!
Clinicals start in Fall. That's when I go to the hospital all day and  pretty much work (mostly bitch work because I'm a student and they love that. yay.) and I don't get paid for it. I'm excited about my "outfit" haha. I need to get comfy as hell white shoes and royal blue scrubs with a white jacket. It'll be cute I guess.
Did I mention I put in my two weeks notice at Office Depot?! haha. I so did. That job is SO stressful it's suffocating. ): It made me an angry person cause 95% of the customers are bitches. Someone find me a job, PLEASE!!!
This studying thing kind of sucks. High school SURE AS HELL didn't prepare me for college. With all those worksheets and hand-fed information, they spoiled us and I didn't learn much. Now, I can't memorize things for a test, stuff I learned today will be on my Radiology National Registry Exam. (I'm scared of that)
I'm so damn glad I have a scholarship, but they get your ass with these book costs. O_O I have to buy a WHOLE set of these huge leather books in fall. Over $100 for ONE class. >.<
I actually have to read now. lol The sophomores of the program (ew! im a freshman again!!) said everyone in our class will become really close. awww. July 31 we have a MANDATORY picnic.
"I'm forcing you to have fun. So be there or die. ...oh.. and bring extra clothes.. and wear your bathing suit under yours.. and dont put anything in your pockets."
uh... O_O It's at a lake on the state line. It'll be cute. We'll throw pies at eachother and get thrown in the lake fully clothed. :D So my childhood isn't COMPLETELY over. :p
After I graduate this program and pass the National Registry exam, I WILL travel before I start to work.
I swear.

Now.. you tell me something..

[31 May 2006|05:38am]
[ mood | sad and sleepy.. ]

I got up at 5:00AM this morning... Today is my first day of college. It's weird... I'd rather sleep in..
I'm sad.
I need a mental boost.. There's something that needs to be done.

Now.. you tell me something..

[19 May 2006|02:31pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

I am officially a high school graduate..
and for my present....

My mom also bought me a HUGE lens to go with it. *dies* I think I'm going to practice learning the features and start a little business. :D

oh yeah and i start college in 11 days.

4 somethings| Now.. you tell me something..

[18 May 2006|02:08pm]
[ mood | excited ]

I graduate with honors tonight.

That is all.

Now.. you tell me something..

[15 May 2006|11:38pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

The good news:

I found the missing piece of my Special K bar that fell off in my bed this morning.

The bad news:

I'm an emotional wreck.

Nothing new.. besides the fact that my FAVORITE pair of jeans got up and walked out the door. They're missing and I'm sad. You know what your favorite pair of jeans are like.. the ones you can wear 3 days in row and still feel cute.
find them, please.

2 somethings| Now.. you tell me something..

[13 May 2006|06:27pm]
I want out.
4 somethings| Now.. you tell me something..

[10 May 2006|11:57am]
One last test to study for.. oh nevermind here's college work.
*6 feet under*
I dont make enough money at my job.. Its because my hours suck, but It seems like I'm always working.
I'm starting to think waitressing (EWGROSSSHOOTMEINTHEFACENOW) is the only way to go because that's instant cash. I couldn't even tell you where my money goes.. mostly gas and car stuff. oh yeah and that $252 cell phone I bought the other day.
I need to sell organs. Instant money. haha okay but not really.
Senior night was fun, courteney and I went to Yukis and ate food. I tried some sushi, one was good, but the other tasted like a moldy wooden pier. >.<
I need to work out, but the only way that would happen is if you hung cake in front of a treadmill.
I'm just lazy.
I'm still in my pjs..
When does the bank close?
Now.. you tell me something..

[09 May 2006|12:42pm]
[ mood | happy ]

I go to school Thursday and for one class on Friday.

Tonight is senior night. <3
I need to take pictures.
I hope no one else has my dress.
I have to sit by two people I don't know.

My teacher gave me a card and a gift.
A Hello Kitty book about graduation.
I don't think there is one thing that's more perfect for me. It's amazing
Soon I'll be finished so I can start college a week later.
Hm. I guess that's the best thing cause I know I wouldn't be productive with a summer off.
I worked hard. It's time for that to pay off. I'll be out of school and doing what I love making a very decent salary keeping me on my feet and happy before half of my class figures out what they want to do with their life or even where they stand. It may sound as if I get pleasure out of their pain, but I don't. I just can't worry about what everyone's doing for themselves.


I'm happy.

Now.. you tell me something..

[04 May 2006|02:18pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

What's hot right now?


Download "The Words Best Friend" or "Baby, You Wouldn't Last a Minute on the Creek"

DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now.. you tell me something..

BE PROUD OF MEEEE [21 Apr 2006|01:16pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

Um. yeah. hi.


You know, the thing I've been dreading and stressing out over. The last high schooler they accepted had a 4.0 GPA and made a 33 on her ACT.
I'm not that smart. haha. I think it's the charm. <3

I start college May 31.


Now.. you tell me something..

[18 Apr 2006|02:52pm]
My beautiful niece + my skills = awesome pictureCollapse )
2 somethings| Now.. you tell me something..

If you're going to judge, don't bother reading [15 Apr 2006|02:20pm]
[ mood | satisfied ]

This is probably my most serious entry yet:

I'm in love and that's never going to change. I don't see why I would want it to.

In case you haven't noticed, lately I've been going through a quarter life crisis. I didn't know what I wanted so I had to experience even the shitty side of life to figure it out. I thought I wasn't being true to myself by being with Robbie, but in the end I am. I hated being drunk. I really didn't have any fun. If I kept that up, I'd end up where I don't want to be. If I'm going to do this right, at 25 I want to be where I picture myself being. Working in a hospital of my choice as an RT and preparing for my wedding.

I really don't care if you think of this as trite, corny, or repetitive. This is how it is.

I thought I was missing out on something. It took losing everything I had to realize how great it really was.

Getting shitfaced and being left at some party with no idea or comprehension what the fuck is going on really isn't my idea of fun. It got to the point where caring meant giving me a blanket and putting a trash can next to my face.

I've reached a pivot point and I've made my decision. I'm going after happiness, not fortune or lust, or any of that shit that is on our list of top priorities.

You can go ahead and talk more shit than you already do, it's really fine, because after a few weeks, it won't mean a damn thing, it'll just be the past. Simple as that.
I know which people really care about me and my well being, which people want me to be successful in life. I almost got caught up in all that shit. I'm still sticking to my morals.
You can call it whatever the fuck you want to, I really don't care.

Talk it up- because that's all it is: talk.

4 somethings| Now.. you tell me something..

[12 Apr 2006|12:44pm]
[ mood | nervous ]

In one hour and 15 minutes I leave and head to Gautier to the Jackson County campus for my radiology interview for the two year program. I've been worrying about this for over a month. ): It's here. bleh. It will be over soon and then all I need is a letter saying they accept me into the program.
My mom told me to be careful on the interstate and then tells me that I'm not insured....

BUT MY CAR IS?! wtf. That's a little unnerving.

I'm single and I need a last minute prom date.
No corsage for me. ):

Afterparties like WOAH, son.

Now.. you tell me something..

dear god [12 Apr 2006|01:04am]
[ mood | panic!! ]

I'm pretty much desperate for a prom date.

I put myself into this situation.. I guess..

I think I'm going to die.

Now.. you tell me something..

[11 Apr 2006|11:55am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

I slept too long this morning so I have one of those headaches.
I work tonight, like every other, but I'm off tomorrow so I can go to my interview at JC for the radiology dept. This pretty much determines the rest of my life, and the last person they let in who was straight out of HS had a 4.0 GPA and made a 30 something on her ACT.
I've been stressing over this for about a month. ):


Now.. you tell me something..

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